Our kitten died today

It's a somber day in my house today. Our kitten died last night while we were sleeping. We found her alone under our back porch about 2 weeks ago. After trying for a few days to find her mommy, we decided to keep her and try to nurse her back to health. I already had four cats so one more didn't seem that challenging.

After much debate, we named her Onyx. She was black and gray with almost a stripe pattern to her fur. I had to feed her with a medicine dropper but she didn't eat much. She still ate very little. One of our older cats had 5 kittens last year so I thought I would be able to take care of her but I was wrong. I guess there really is nothing like a mother's love...and Onyx's mother wasn't here.

Needless to say, my three little girls were upset, my oldest (age 9) took it the hardest. My five year old told me to take her to the doctor. It was hard for me to tell her that when you die, you never wake up. It has been a few hours and the girls seem fine now. They have been amusing themselves with our other cats.

I feel awful and I wish there was something more I could have done for her. I know that she is happy and running around in kitty heaven but I am still sad for the loss that my girls had this morning. I regret that I didn't even take a picture of her. The picture above just looks like her. If you pray, say a little prayer for our kitty. She will be missed.